Sorry guys for leaving without warning.  I had an unexpected interruption in my internet service ....how sad!  But anyways I am back for a little while, though not sure how long.  If I am ever offline for more than a few days I am okay, just have alot going on.  Autumn will be born in about 2 more weeks so I will definetely be letting you all know when that happens LOL!  I will be trying to catch up challenges as I can and reading blogs when I have time, but please try to understand that I am taking a new medicine and I do sleep alot so I might not be around like I want to.  Love you guys!

Hugs,

Purple

Hi guys.  Sorry it's been a few days and I didn't get around to blogs over the weekend.  I did play a few games, but didn't have a whole lot of computer time as we had Kristen and Keith actually had an off day over the weekend which is unusual.  So I guess I will get back to blogs this weekend.  I got my challenges caught up cause I won't be getting on tomorrow.  Keith is off and also I have my first appointment with my counselor tomorrow so will be sleeping when I can LOL! Anyways, just wanted to let you all know that I haven't forgotten about you, just been trying to take it easy mostly.....might catch an odd blog here and there but other than that I will be back on the weekend to catch up with them...that is unless my mom comes up like she might.  And then of course it will be next week sometime when I catch up with you all! Hope this finds everyone well....Im just okay I guess...kind of blah, kinda of [censored]y and kinda of aggravated...but nothing unusual LOL! Anyways, Im out of here, you guys take care!

Hugs,

Purple

Well guys hope you are all okay.  Me, I am just okay....not terrific, but have been worse.  I knew it was coming and yesterday it did.  I had a complete mental breakdown and had to be taken to the emergency room.  Of course the doctors think it's stress and I have to agree.  I am home now and going back to work tonight....but am getting the help I need finally and not just medicine...but a counselor to actually talk to as well.  Also that couples counseling that me and Keith had agreed on...well that is finally about to happen for us finallly!  I am so excited and so scared about it all at the same time.  I am okay though ....just mentally and physically drained from the whole ordeal.  I am kind of mad at my brother for getting the police involved...but at least I am safe and so is Skylar.  Not that he was ever in any danger...but the kid does need a mother that isn't going to break down and cry everytime he does.  Just want to let you all know I am going to take it easy for awhile and will ONLY be reading and commenting on blogs on my days off so that I am not trying to do too much.  Also my challenges (which you can send all you want to) I will holding off and waiting on them till the weekend unless I happen to already be up or have a few minutes to play them.  I hope you all understand.  Ps Got some video of Skylar walking finally ...am going to host it and then I will be posting it in a blog here in a few minutes.  You guys take care and after the Skylar blog I will see you the weekend!!!!!

Love and hugs,

Purple

Good morning all! Hope you all slept well last night! I slept a little better and am feeling alot better this morning.  Your advice and help went a long way trust me.  Though I am feeling a little blue because I have to go back to work tonight after having a whole week and a half (round about) off to do as I please and pretend I was a stay at home mommy again! Which I might add I miss alot!  So trying to get some last minute laundry and housework done before I take a nap later in the day to be bright eyed and busy tailed for the night ahead.  Lord knows Im excited about going back...NOT!!! LOL I wish I could stay at home and keep house and take care of Skylar and cook dinner for Keith every night.  I kind of missed that, but oh well....guess work is important.  And besides in about 10 more weeks I will get to do it again for 6 weeks!  I hope you guys understand that I won't be around as much as blogging everyday or even reading blogs everyday  except on Friday, Saturday and Sunday cause I try to spend my freetime during the week playing with Skylar and sleeping when I can....which I was able to cut out the sleeping part over the last week and play with him when he was awake and get on here when he wasn't LOL!  But anyways, Im kind of sad, kind of happy to be going back to work, but I know I need to.  I have even heard talk of having to work this coming Friday....in a way that would be nice cause that's 8 hours of getting paid 12 bucks an hour!!!!!!! And it's not like it's hard work to pack those dang boxes LOL~!  But it does take away from family and my grab time LOL LOL LOL!  Skylar's in his room with the gate up playing right now.  He has been sleeping in there by HIMSELF since we moved to Chattanooga back in September and it's so nice to have a kid that actually will sleep in his own room.  He also has gotten to where he plays pretty good by himself when the darn cat isn't in there aggravating him.  she loves to play with his toys too as I am sure you all can imagine.  They are sometimes best friends, sometimes worst enemies....but he loves her....much to my dismay.  I would love to get rid of the aggravating cat! LOL.  Oh speaking of cat and skylar...I put up a bunch of pictures last night in my albums...some are from when skylar was younger, some are of Jordan and Jessie, a couple of Sneakers...and some are of me and Keith and maybe one or two that I could find of Kristen...I am not sure if they are approved yet or not....but feel free to look through them...it amazed me to see how much Skylar has grown while I was going through and putting them in the album last night LOL!   Okay well now I am just rambling and am totally off subject....going to go check on my laundry and start reading blogs!  Send me some good challenges today guys!  I am feeling lucky LMAO~

Hugs,

Purple

Good morning friends! Hope everyone is feeling well this morning.  Me, personally I woke up in a crabby mood this morning and yes I do want to talk about it.  LOL!  I had alot of trouble last night trying to sleep.  I know I've been wanting a girl since the first time I got pregnant with my oldest son, but the thought hit me last night...I've had three boys....what in the heck am I going to do with a little girl when she gets here? I mean admittedly I won't have to worry about doing the whole circumsicion (sp?) thing, but there are so many other things.  Will I be any good at fixing her hair?  I've never changed a little girls diaper....do you do it the same way as a boys? I know that sounds stupid but I am scared to death.  Maybe a little early since Im not due till May....but the closer I get the scareder I get....YIKES!!!!  Not to mention when girls get bigger they tend to have the PMS problems which boys don't...smart ass mouths...plus they can get pregnant...what the heck was I thinking?   I guess it's too late to take it back now...but how will I ever deal with being a mommy to a little girl?  I worry ...I do such a horrible job of being a step mom to Kristen that I know I will do an even worse job of being a mom to my own little girl.  There's just so much more to deal with when you have a girl....shoes, makeup....etc.  I mean boys are expected to get dirty ....little girls are sposed to stay clean and spotless ....pretty as a peach.  Grrrrrrrrrrr...I wish I wasn't feeling this way...I know I will love my daughter...Im just scared I will fail.   Also another that scares the heck out of me is Skylar.  He will only be 19 months old when Autumn is born.  Will he know how much he is loved?  Will he be jealous? I mean I already know that Kristen isn't going to be very receptive of Autumn but how am I going to deal if neither of them accept her?  Skylar is my child too, but I do want him to love his sister not be jealous of her.  Too much on my mind this morning...too scared and taking it out on everyone around.  Poor keith I felt bad for him...it's almost like he couldn't wait to go to work this morning cause of me being irritable.  I should have slept...but it's hard to sleep with all these thoughts running through your head.  OH well, guess I will eventually get over it! Not something I can take back, just will have to learn to deal with it!

Have a great day guys,

Hugs,

Purple

The following post is copied and pasted from a website.  I am sharing this info with you because my kids, ex husband, his family, and my mom, sister and brothers and niece and nephew live about thirty minutes from this place.  I was worried sick all night long, but finally have heard from them all and everyone is ok.  though I am sure lower Alabama could use lots of prayers today and in the coming days because of this tragedy.  Especially the families of the children that died at school...How very sad. 

Love,

Purple

Tornadoes kill at least 18 in Alabama, including 15 at a high school; Missouri girl dies

BOB JOHNSON
Associated Press Writer

Residents gather near an overturned truck which landed against a house in Enterprise, Ala., Thursday, March 1, 2007. An apparent tornado struck the high school, trapping students under rubble and killing at least eight people, emergency officials said. More than 40 people were brought to an Enterprise hospital, and damaged homes and one death were reported in west Alabama as a violent storm front crossed the state. (AP Photo/Dothan Eagle, Danny Tindell)

ENTERPRISE, Ala. — Apparent tornadoes killed at least 18 people in Alabama on Thursday, including 15 at a high school where students were trapped under a collapsed roof, state officials said.

A Military Assistance to Safety and Traffic helicopter from Fort Rucker awaits victims for transport outside Enterprise High School in Enterprise, Ala., Thursday, March 1, 2007. An apparent tornado struck the high school, trapping students under rubble and killing at least eight people, emergency officials said. More than 40 people were brought to an Enterprise hospital, and damaged homes and one death were reported in west Alabama as a violent storm front crossed the state. (AP Photo/Dothan Eagle, Danny Tindell)

Two died elsewhere in Enterprise and one in rural Millers Ferry, where a separate apparent twister wrecked mobile homes, Alabama Emergency Management Agency spokeswoman Yasamie Richardson said.

A battered truck rests against a broken tree near a mobile home that was demolished after an early morning tornado east of Caulfield, Mo., Thursday, March 1, 2007. Tornadoes swept through southern Missouri around dawn Thursday, damaging homes and businesses and killing at least one person a few hours after another twister touched down in neighboring Kansas, authorities said. A 7-year-old child died in the storm, and there were reports of people missing from the Caulfield area, said Missouri State Highway Patrol Sgt. Marty Elmore. (AP Photo/Mark Schiefelbein)

"The number could very well increase as the search effort continues through the night," she said.

A fallen tree rests atop a crushed pickup truck after an early morning tornado moved through Caulfield, Mo., Thursday, March 1, 2007. Tornadoes swept through southern Missouri around dawn Thursday, damaging homes and businesses and killing at least one person a few hours after another twister touched down in neighboring Kansas, authorities said. A 7-year-old child died in the storm, and there were reports of people missing from the Caulfield area, said Missouri State Highway Patrol Sgt. Marty Elmore. (AP Photo/Mark Schiefelbein)

More than 50 people were hospitalized as the violent storm front crossed the state.

Well guys I went back today for the other ultrasound.  though we didn't do it I will tell you what I found out.  Apparently my doctor lost his ever loving mind last week and got my due date mixed up because he said that I alot smaller than what I should be...in other words he was saying that I was due in APRIL not May...dumbass doctor LOL! Soo anyways....it was all a scare for nothing.  Everything is aok ;)!!!!!  I am glad to hear that, just makes me question my doctor's sanity thoughOther than that, nothing new hear...Skylar is finally starting to walk, though can't get him to walk long enough to get it on video or without pitching  a fit to be picked up...but as soon as I can get it on video I will of course post it for you all to see how cute the little butthead is .  yes I called my son a butthead, but only in the most loving manners I promise LOL! 

Me and one of the girls I work with went to lunch today before the dr's appointment and I will tell you I have never been so embarassed in my life.  Skylar threw fits, threw his food and just acted like a wild animal.  I so wanted to give him away.  LOL Guess it's almost time for the terrible two's to start though huh?  He is only 16 months old...dear God help me ...but I think most of it was due to not having a nap...so he has been up all day and he is still in his room in bed talking to himself but hopefully he will go to sleep for a bit cause he has been bad ...really bad...today.  I am ready to pull my hair out and go beserk...I am just not used to him acting this way.  Of course alot of it has to do with teething.  I noticed today that number 8 is coming in as well as number 7 that started coming in about a week and half ago....poor kid I know it has to be painful (I know it is stressful for mommy!). 

Oh well got some challenges to catch up and some blogs to read, so I will catch up to you all again later~!

Much love and hugs,

Purple

Wooohooo! The temp service just called that I work for and I have been laid off for a week...just one week though...they do want me to come back on the 5th of March.  IN a way it is bad cause I need to work, but in another way it is awesome cause I need some time off to rest and just spend time with my family! :) I am so freaking excited LOL!!!!!  OH well....might even look for something a little more permanant!

Take care friends ,

Love and hugs,

Purple

Good afternoon friends! Im sure you can tell by the change in color that the ultrasound went great! Our little Autumn Cheyenne is due in May! Yep, that's right, it's definetely a girl ...a very brave one at that LOL! She showed the world everything she had!  I did gain the pound I lost last month back so wooohooo.  Also the doctor didn't go into any details but I have to go to a specialist for an ultrasound next week.  To me that doesn't sound good, but he says it is probablly nothing, he just saw something a little out of the ordinary and thought it should be checked out....but doesn't want me alarmed...of course I can't help but to be alarmed when he sends me to a specialist.  Oh well hopefully all will go well and I will try not to worry too much until I have a solid reason to worry! Anyways, must go to sleep now cause I went shopping for babyclothes afterwards LOL and haven't been to sleep since i got home from work! You all take care and I will get around to blogs and challenges either later today or tomorrow!

Hugs,

Purple

Sorry it took so long but here it is! The new haircut (some of you might have seen the one on my other profile where I had LONG hair...this is much different and I LOVE IT! )

Hugs,

Purple