Ok so I'm feeling a little better about myself lately. I think I've lost some weight in the past month and a half. All my clothes are like one size too big and everyone keeps saying I look skinnier. I really want to lose weight but I kep thinking that I wouldn't be able to but now I have more confidence in myself.....not alot but more than before.

It's just so hard to hang out with my friends though,they're all so skinny and I'm like the huge whale in a flock of flamingos!!! It's always bothering me but I just try not to show it. I'm so sick of all this though,everyone thinks I'm happy and fine but I'm really not and sometimes I feel like I'm going to have a nervous break down and I really need someone to talk to but I don't want to tell anyone because I don't want everyone thinking that I'm a psycho freak or something.

Well anyways I'm not going to sit here and complain to you guys about my problems....that's getting old and annoying.  Well I've been practicing my drawing alot more lately and I think I'm getting better. My new art teacher has arrived. Her name is Makeba(MAH-KEY-BAH)and she's a professional artist. She has a website that has all her painting and the meaning of them too,I think if you google "Makeba Kedeem Duboose" you might get some matches on her and maybe you'll get to see her paintings,they're really great! She's having trouble keeping everyone in control though.It's not her fault,everyone runs around playing while we're doing art and they won't sit and do the art projects,they're taking advantage of her because they know Jessi would never allow this and they know eventually she'll catch up and get tougher so they figure "Hey let's have fun for now while it last!". I try to help her though,I'm one of only 2 people who try to help her out and keep everyone in control,and clean up and everything. I really like her so that's why I'm trying to help her.  She also has a 6 year old daughter named Nina,she's so cute! Everyone likes her and she's really fun to have. She thinks that she'll get special treatment because Makeba(we call her by her name,yes Makeba is her first name lol)is her mother but not gonna happen.

Well I'm supposed to be at my friends house practicing for the talent show(I'll give you details on that later)and I'm still here so bye!