Interesting it is, how they will talk to you when they need to talk to you, and only then, but when you need to talk to them.  They turn away, and say that they are busy. I get this alot nowadays. It kind of frustrates me. No not any of my girl friends do this. It is all the guy friends that I have. It makes me sick and tired of trying to be friends with them.  one person in particular. GRRR he makes me soo mad. Anyways, enough of guy problems. I will have plenty of them in  my lifetime. I have already had plenty of them, but yea. I have a ton of homework to do. I got caught in a storm last week and didnt make it back to school, so now i must pay for it! Oh fun! I am playing a text twist tournament as I type, so it is taking me a whle to get through this. Have patience. lol...I might get a new job. I hope I can, but if I do, I am going to have to quit wall drug early, or try to make something so i get the job three months before karrie has her wedding, so i can get the time off. I really want this job more than i wan any other job. it offers a lot of benefits for college students that could be ver good for me. I need dental and health insurance and this will give it to me even if i only work twenty hours a week. i really think that this would be the best course for me to take. i know that it will be hard working and going to school, but i think its for the best. i really wish i could go to the dentist or the eye doctor, but i have no insurance, so i cant because i dont have enough money to pay for it. but with this job i will be able to go no problem. this really could be a turning point for me if i can get this job. i cant wait to talk to my dad and mom about it to see what they think i should do.  im pretty sure they will say that i should try for it.  If i do get the job, i would have to commute to rapid city a lot, but if i am going there to work. i dont think that i would have too much of a problem with that. I am also going to be living in a campus apartment, so i wont have to get a meal plan. i can get really cheap groceries to eat, and make sandwiches and soup and stuff like that instead of paying a ton for cafeteria food. i may just get an apartment in rapid city though, so i can stay there during the summer and not have to worry about the commuting. im still debating on that one.  i will discuss all of this with my parents and get back to you on this all.   I am just really excited because i have soo much going on right now. I am mad about a lot of things that are going on, but i am mostly happy right now in life. i just wish i could be closer to my brother tanya, and their baby that is about to come. i really would like to be near the kid. i cant wait till i finally can be close to him. well, i suppose, i have to beat this tournament, so i will talk to yall laters..bec

Well, I thought that all of my plans for coming home were messed up, but I come to find out that they aren't, so that makes me very happy. I have a biology lab test today that I am about to go study for. I am really tired though, so I may take a quick nap. I stayed up late last night. I only got four hours of sleep. That sucks. I thought I was going to hurt like heck today because I worked out for a very long time yesterday, and it hurt when I was done, but I feel great today, so I am going to try that workout every day and see if it helps me out any. I have lost five pounds in the past two weeks, so I hope that that keeps up. I want to be able to wear a bikini sometime! Well, I guess I better get going. Talk to you all later.

Well, I wrote in every other blog today, so I thought I would come in here and write too. Ain't I nice? I get to go home in two weeks! I am soooo happy about that. I can't wait! I won't be back there again until august after this.  That sucks sooo bad! Even when I go home in August, I will be running around so much that I highly doubt I will be able to see my family. This summer, I am going to try to make as much money as I can, and save as much as possible, but I am going to be commuting to the wildlife sanctuary at least once a week! That is going to take up some gas, but that is the ONLY gas I am going to use. I am going to either walk everywhere else or buy a bike and ride there. I am thinking about getting a bike because it would be nice to go out for long rides at night, but then again, I could take long walks too. I guess I will figure that out when the time comes. I am going to have Kelly give me 200 dollars because she owes me that money. She just doesn't know she is giving it to me yet hahah! I am soo nice. No really, she does owe me that money. She actually owes me 400, but I am going to let the other 200 slide. See! I am nice! Well, I guess I better get going. That isn't nearly as long as the other blogs, but there is a government meeting here soon, and I don't want to be here when they are having it. Even though I am supposed to be lol. Talk to you all laters. Have fun!

Well, I have a test today and a test on friday. Then I get to go home and see my family. I am pretty excited about it. I am going to spend the first night and all day at Leah's house, then go to see my dad and stepsiblings. On Sunday, I am supposed to eat supper with my mom and brother and his girlfriend. I am all excited for Monday because I will be able to see Kelly again. I am going to spend the night at her house for three nights and when she is at school, I am going to be at napa with dad. On the 9th I am going to go back to dad's to spend the night. I want to go to a party sometime when I am home because I want to meet up with Broten. I don't know if that is going to happen though. Anyways, I had better get going. I have to go study for my lab test. Talk to you all laters. Bec

Well, I found out that my livejournal still works. So, I can go there and read all of my old journal entries. I have also started writing in it again, so I will be writing in my blogs less and less as the time progresses. My livejournal is more private than my blogs are, and only one person knows what my name is on there to look at what I write. That person has his head stuck up too far in his new Girlfriend's butt to realize who his true friends are. Thank goodness I won't have to deal with him anymore. Also, I haven't written in that thing for so long I think he doesn't know that I write in it again. I win double time! No one is going to read that thing! I like people reading my blogs. There are just some things I need to keep to myself, but also have a way to express how I feel about it. No offense to anyone who reads this! I do write in like five or six other places. Each day I write somewhere different. In my myspace, I wrote some poetry. If anyone wants to read that the link is www.myspace.com/crazysugarbear. There are other things on there than just poetry. I am not that good of a poet anyways. Anyways, I had better get going. Just thought I would tell you all about my livejournal. Talk to you laters. Bec

Well, I am going back home again for spring break! When I go, I get to spend three nights over at Kelly's house, so that will be good. I am coming home  a day early, but I am going to be spending from march 2nd until march 4th with Leah in Wahpeton. She doesn't know that I am coming home early because she hasn't emailed me in like four days the brat!!! When I am home, hopefully I will get my computer back because I need it for writing reports and doing research for classes. I got nine movies yesterday when I went to walmart, so I also hope that I will get my income taxes back soon because I really need that money now. I got Forever Young, National Lampoon's European Vacation, The Ninja Turtles Trilogy, While you were Sleeping, A Cinderella Story, Trading Places, and well....i can't remember the last one at this moment. I will tell you later...anyways, I went on a movie binge, but I didn't get the movies that I really wanted. Stupid walmart didn't have any Pauly Shore movies! Well, I suppose I better get going. Talk to you all laters...Bec