It was brought to my attention that I needed 2 update "My Wanna's". Now...I realized this but hadn't taken the time 2 do so.

As most of u know Mysfitt, (aka: Jay, My Dog, and NOW my husband) and I have been married since St. Paddy's Day. Sooo @ least three of my wanna's had 2 be deleted as follows:

1} lay in my baby's arm's This feels VERY NICE!!!

2} take a long drive w/ My Dog I can check this one off 2!! Jay and I took a very long drive 2gether from WV to NY and back. Lord, what a trip that was!!

3} Meet Mysfitt I not only met him but within the first week he was here, I had him change his address and we had bought a marriage license.

A Big THX 2 all our Grab Friends 4 ur support & prayers!!  We love U all. :D

My Countdown is Officially On - I will be keeping a daily post till the 7th of Feb.  Mysfitt (hereafter refered 2 as: J or My Dog ) and I have been talking 4 serveral months now. As some of u know, he has FREE nites & weekends on his cell ph. and we are taking advantage of them!! We talk EVERY nite after 9pm, sometimes till the wee hours of the morning. I have NEVER felt so connected 2 anyone b-4. Truely he must be The Love of My Life!!!

10 days and counting: It's been a very long January but...as of 2day, I have only 10 more days 2 wait b-4 I will feel Mysfitts arms around me!  

9 days to go: And J has the weekend off work, Woo-Hoo!! And seeing as how we can talk 4 FREE, well that's a bigger WOO-HOO!!!!!!!! He called me this morning b-4 he even got out of bed. It's definately the Year of My Dog!!

8 days to go: OK I'm down to 8 days and talking with My Dog as I type. He's so sweet, to call me b-4 I leave for church.  

7 days to go: Down to ONE WEEK!! Sounds & feels much better then one month. Thought I'd never make it though Jan.  But with a little help from my friends and My Dog, I've made it to 7 days! Thanks You ALL!! And may this week FLY by.

5 days to go!!! YES....I said 5!!! I'm NOT CRAZY, My Dog has taken 2 days off my countdown!  He will be here on Sunday instead of Tuesday.  Woo-Hoo!!!!!!!!! I was finishing his thoughts while on the fone last nite. (hehehe) He ask me 2 quit playing around in his head. Somehow I don't think he really meant it. That's just how connected we both seem to be! OMG I love u mysfitt!! I so want to be an actual part of him & his life. Sooooooon Brenda Soooon, Oh great now i'm talkin' 2 myself. Well until 2morrow

3 days to go!!!   Well My Dog has done it 2 me AGAIN!! He is now telling me he will be headed my way after he picks up his check Friday @ noon! THAT IS LESS THAN 72 hrs. FROM NOW!!

2 days to go: and believe it or not J has not changed the schedule on me again!  J missed work y-day, really wish i could have been there to take care of him.  But he's feeling much better 2day! It's hard for me to believe that in less than 48 hrs. I will be in my baby's arms! Plzzz keep us both in ur thoughts & prayers.

Only hours now!!: OK....sorry but I got called away this morning b-4 I could post. Then I decided 2 go c a best friend and ended up spending the day with her. The Good thing about that was she has unlimited calling inside the U.S., which means I was talking with Jay as he has been headed 4 WV!! As of 5pm he was half way here!!!  OMG, he should be in my arms within hours. Godspeed My Love!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay has arrived safely!!  And I could not be happier. We were informed it would take 8.5 hrs. for him to get here, but he made it in 7hrs. I wish I could say that the rest of my family is as happy as I - but that wouldn't be true.  We are together now and dealing with everyone else as best we can. Plz keep those prayers going for us!!  He & I are taking William my son to a 4-H Family Fun Nite 2nite, should be lots of fun!  Thank U All for ur encouraging comments.

Monday- Feb. 6th: J and I spent the whole day 2gether and we went ring shopping! Only looked but have some real good ideas of what we want. Mainly want to be Mr. & Mrs. Jay Bates!!

Friday - Feb. 10th: Well folks My Dog has been in West Virginia 4 a week now..... and he is loving it!! I'm glad because I DO NOT plan on letting him leave.  We are planning on getting married....though we're not sure how soon.        I forgot to tell you....but I fell on the bridge last Sunday morning.  Jay has been doctoring my left thigh ALL WEEK! I have a bruise covering (pretty much) the whole back of my thigh. Note To Self: Cowboy boots and slick bridge Do Not Mix!!!        William (my son) and Jay are getting along GREAT! It's as if he has been a part of our lives 4-ever!  And we both plan on keeping Jay a part of our lives!!

I Just Thought I Was Happy B-4 He Got Here,.........I have fallen more deeply in love than I thought possible!  May God Bless You All As Richly As I Have Been Blessed!!!!!     

Saturday - Feb. 25th:  This will be my last post in this countdown....I think.  As of the 21st I took Jay to our Post Office and his address is offically changed to mine! After changing his address we went to the courthouse and filed for our marriage license!!  We now have until the 21st of April to get hitched.

People are like stained glass windows,

They sparkle & shine when the sun is out.

But when darkness sets in,

Their true beauty is revealed only if there is light within.

     Can it really be that I have actually found the Love of my Life??  It sure feels that way!!  My heart aches daily just to hear from him.  I wait patiently everyday....because he never fails to call me each evening.

     I NEVER thought I would love again, but Jay has changed my world!!!   Feb. will not get here soon enough this year  for me!  My Jay is coming down from New York to see me!!  Yeah, you could say he has  made me a part of him, and he a part of me.

     So until Feb. my love will wait and grow.  Yeah, I believe I have found the Love of My Life !!  So Mysfitt I wish you Godspeed until you get to me.

bfbutler_65  LOVES Mysfitt 

Poem written by my son in the summer of 2005

In A Fantasy

In fantasy I touch the clouds making me free from all dispair

Touching them makes me speechless and lost in my fantasy

Up in the sky there are no worries and my mind can run free

You can touch the clouds and your mind can be free

But only in a fantasy

                                 written by: William A. Butler  - Age: 12

Patterns in the Sky

I like to sit out on a cloudy day

And watch the clouds do dances in the sky

It soothes my soul and brings joy inside

It's fun to make out what some of them look like

Some are fluttering in motion

Some are dancing on ice

I see scenes of angels and pictures of God

At night, I see dragons floating in the stars

I stay outside and watch them lengths on end

Until my mother says that I have to come in

                                      written by: William A. Butler   6th grade

Posted in Loving Memory of:

Anthony D. Cox  - my only brother

                       And

Our Granfmother - Clarice M. Cox

Who are but two links in my broken chain.

The Broken Chain

We little knew that morning, that Gos

was going to call your name.

In life we loved you dearly,

In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,

you did not go alone;

for part of us went with you,

the day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,

your love is still our guide;

and though we cannot see you,

you are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,

and nothing seems the same;

but as God calls us one by one,

the chain will link again.

- author unknown -

Before U were thought of or time had begun,

God even stuck U in the name of His Son.

And each time U pray,  you'll see it's true

You can't spell out JesUs and not include U.

You're a pretty big part of His wonderful name,

For U, He was born; that's why He came.

And His great love for U is the reason He died.

It even takes U to spell crUcified.

Isn't it thrilling and spendidly grand

He rose from the dead, with U in His plan.

The stones split away, the gold trumpet blew,

and thie word resUrrection is spelled with a U.

When JesUs left earth at His upward ascention,

He felt there was one thing He just had to mention.

& quote; "Go into the world and tell them it's true

That I love them all - Just like I love U."

So many great people are spelled with a U,

Don't they have a right to know JesUs too?

It all depends now on what U will do,

He'd like them to know

But it all starts with U.