WOW I AM TELLING YOU TIME IS JUST SLIPPING AWAY ANYMORE...I NOTICED I HAVEN'T BEEN HERE FOR 37 DAYS THIS TIME...I DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME SOMETIMES LOL
I HAVE A FEELING THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST SO BARE WITH ME...WELL, THINGS AROUND HERE HAVEN'T BEEN GOING TOOOOOOOO GREAT....BUT YESTERDAY WAS THE STRAW THAT BROKE THE CAMELS BACK (MINE)
I HAVE BEEN FOUND TO HAVE A CYST ON MY LAST AND FINAL OVARY...WHICH HAS ME UPSET BECAUSE YES I AM 41 YEARS OLD AND NOOOOO I DON'T THINK KIDS ARE AN OPTION NOW BUT STILL......I AM JUST SO TIRED OF THINGS BEING TAKING FROM ME...ANY HOODLES WET NOODLES...I WAS TO GO TO THE DOCTORS YESTERDAY FOR A "TALK" ABOUT WHAT THEY CAN DO FOR ME...PLUS I AM P.M.S. ING.....WELL, ANY WAY....I WAITED IN THE WAITING ROOM FOR 1 AND 1/2 HOURS....WATCHING PREGNANT WOMEN AND WOMEN WITH BABIES COME AND GO AND IT RIPPED MY HEART OUT....I HURT SO MUCH....I STARTED TO GET ANTSY AND MAD AT THE PEOPLE AND THE NURSES ETC....SO THEY FINALLY GET ME BACK INTO A ROOM AND THERE I WAIT 1 HOUR MORE....THEY COME IN AND TELL ME THAT MY RIDE CALLED AND ASKED WHEN I WOULD BE DONE...I HAD IT (PLUS FEELING VERY CRANKY AND HURTING) I UP AND LEFT...WELL, THEY DIDN'T TELL US THAT OUR RIDE HAD TO COME BACK TO THIS COUNTY AND THAT WE WOULD HAVE TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER DRIVER TO COME AND GET US....THEY DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME A REASON WHY I HAD TO WAIT SO LONG....BUT I WAS SO RELIEVED WHEN I LEFT THE OFFICE...THEN THEY HAD ENOUGH NERVE TO CALL HERE AT MY HOUSE AND TELL MY STEP DAUGHTER (BETH) THAT I NEEDED TO COME BACK AND GET A PAPER FOR BLOOD WORK!! I SENT SCOTT BACK UP TO GET THAT....I THOUGHT IF I GO IN THERE I MAY NOT COME BACK OUT WITHOUT HANDCUFFS ON......OUR RIDE CAME AND GOT US....AND I COMPLAINED...SCOTT COMPLAINED AND THE DRIVER SWEARS IT HAS TO DO WITH OUR INSURANCE...BUT YEAH THERE ISN'T PROOF THAT THAT IS THE REASON WE HAD TO WAIT...ANNNNYYYYYWAY...I CAME HOME AND I BUSTED OUT IN TEARS AND I CRIED AND I CRIED AND I LITERALLY CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP...IT ISN'T FAIR HOW GOD GIVES CHILDREN TO SOME OF THESE PARENTS AND I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED MY OWN..I RAISED SOMEONE ELSES KIDS AND NOW THEY CAN GIVE A [censored] ABOUT ME BECAUSE NOW AFTER THEY TURNED 18 THEIR REAL MOM WANTS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THEM SO THEY TREAT ME LIKE CRAP
JENNIFER HAS BEEN DIAGNOISED WITH THAT NEW PRE-CANCER STUFF HPV.....
BETH HAS A JOB NOW THROUGH OVR AND SOME MENTAL HANDICAP PLACE...I AM PROUD OF HER...
SCOTT IS STILL SCOTT......
WELL, THE BIRDS ARE STILL WITH US EXCEPT PICKLES WHICH SOME OF YOU KNOW HAD PAST AWAY A YEAR AGO IN DECEMBER....
I HAVE TO GO SORR IT IS SO LONG ....
