I have created my new ID.

The plan is so far.  To send invitations to you through my new ID.  Then calvinsmommy will lay dormant, with no friends.  The blogs will stay private, but I will eventually move the HTML to Wordpress!

Then after my Wordpress is created, I will again do another blog from my new ID.  asking for emails and such.

Loves and SNORGLES!

I have come to a conclusion.  If I stay here on grab, I can't be calvinsmommy!

Anyone have some semi-suggestions as to what they think I should start thinking of for a screen name?

Based on what you know and love about me, please in the comment section, Answer these 5 questions WITHOUT looking at the other comments.  Thanks!

What do you think is my favorite color?

What do you think of when you think of me?

Is there a screen name that would fit me better than calvinsmommy?

What do you think is most important in my life?

Why do I have you on my friends list?

Thanks guys!  This is gonna be fun!

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Then SCROLL DOWN FOR SOME FUN!

I was discussing the blog before posting on IM with Lucia. these are her answers!

"i believe that the best screennames are given to you by circumstances and life situations. You can also get the screen name by asknig friends as you are doing"

She suggested!!! caligirlkenzie?

Which I have added into the running.  I will be taking votes.  My blog will be public for TODAY ONLY.  Then I will have a new screen name by the time my tourney is over!

http://www.grab.com/boards/b/home/topic/126092

Come Join in!  Only 20 Grabbles and 24 hours :)

 Gobbildy goooooo gobbildy Goooooooooo this is a bunch of Gobiddidly GOO!  LMAO!

OOOOh yeah.  I gots me a skype!  I think I am going to love it.  I have a headphones, and a webcam/mic.  I can hear very well through the headphones, and the mic works awesome!  Can't wait!

I am done with my list.  My blog is not public anymore.  I will not delete my posts :)  I will protect them.  I sent messages to those that I did not know well enough.  If they didn't respond....I removed them!  ((hugs))

Familiar with time? Can you define what a Zeptosecond is?

I am sure google could tell me.  But it might be the instant I make a decision out of fear or madness?

I will google it.  What do you think it is?

OK Grab....you stoppit now :P lmao!  I don't BELIEVE in astrology.  BUT of course what caught my eye on the side of my profile is this.  But you know...this didn't come from the *STARS*  Someone wrote it...and today it makes sense!

Even the most pleasing person in your life could become ornery today. Just when you have it all figured out, the emotional dynamics can shift again, proving your assumptions wrong. Unfortunately, you won't be able to plan on maintaining the status quo. Relationships are in flux now and so are your feelings. Give yourself time before making any big decisions you might later regret.

If my assumptions are wrong...lemmie know!  Cause contact us link WORKS!  But I can't see my whole blog toolbar (in the latest edition of internet explorer running windows XP)...and am NOT HTML savvy enough to remember the HTML I need to create a link :P to make contact us a LINK!  So here it is! http://www.grab.com/site/?page=contactus

Grab has a creator...he looks like a cute little green guy!

Grab wanted to share a part of them the mostly fun caring part, to collect some people to do a job.  To support Grab!

But some people found Grab, that didn't like it.  They wanted the games Grab had, alllll to themselves.  But Grab knows these games should be free, and you should not have to pay more than you can afford for these luxuries.

And the ones who can...do pay.  Because it costs a lot to support Grab.  But Grab does things to off set that cost.  Like these annoying pop up ads...but we can do things to protect ourselves from them if they disrupt our lives, and the loving people of Grab create blogs to help us.  Or they have a message box we can talk to.

And Grab set up MODS that they trusted.  And when those MODS do not do things Grab thinks are good for it, Grab removes them.

And Grab makes the MODS talk to each other.  So they don't become prejuduced.  And the MODS mod each other.  And the MODS encourage you to ask them questions...flood their inbox.  Don't spread personal opinion out there...DO it in your blog! 

And Grab hardly ever talks to us personally.  Grab cannot form the correct words.  Grab is working hard...and someday, yup.  Grab will be great again.  The MODS are working hard with specific instructions so this will be so.  And more of Grab's websites will work better.  Because the other websites support Grab a little more than this one does, so attention must be placed there.

Grab has a system.  These are programs.  These programs have flaws.  To explain, would allow for more cheating...and thats not right.  That disrupts the peaceful community Grab tries so hard to have.  Cause we all just wanna PLAY games.  Not play games. 

So Grab removes the troublemakers eventually.  And Grab does not tell us how to get on the All Stars board.  And Grab removes things that cause contention...even if some members like it.

I love you Grab.  I always have!

Do you dress up for Halloween?

Sure if I feel like it.

Am I gonna be girly...(I've even started wearing SOME pink)

Am I gonna be punky?  I have LOADS of fun stuff....

Am I gonna stay in my PJ's cause I don't feel good...OR because IT MAKES me feel good.

T shirt and jeans cause its practical?  Do I need to be a bookeeper today?  Am I going places a dress is considered appropriate...like possible religious services?  Or I COULD BE NUDE RIGHT NOW!  OR COMMANDO!  heh!

And a lot of times...that alllll happens in one day.  I've been in my PJs so long its NOT comfy...so I wanna bust outta my shell...so I go Punky/gothie cause I LOVE THAT!  But I try to tone it down...with a girly T shirt....and crud this skirt IS too short to be running around in, jeans under the skirt.....hey that looks COOL!  And at the end of the day....I end up in jammies, but its also OK to sleep in your clothes if you dont have jammies or forgot to do the wash....

I'll take a pic of myself Halloween night....or go to my myspace page, Im addicted to pictures of myself lately.  PM me for link :D  I might not be feeling up to taking a pic that day!  So!  You'll NEVER KNOW WILL YA! heeee!

Last winter...I took off from a place I had decided to call my home.  Grab.  I loved you grab!  You were the place I turned to when I was falling into that dark place.  I found things that cheered me up, and people that didn't let me down.  They recognized the good in me even when I didn't see it myself.

Then one by one...they started having problems, life, even sometimes dealing with issues that arose on Grab.  Internal conflicts.  I didn't know how to help.  I had my own.  But I made sure I knew where they were headed, and got an email address.

I was still here.  Not posting on the boards.  Nope!  Not me anymore.  I didn't like everyone attacking me, and I didn't have the mental strength to keep my chin up.  Well, I've got it back.  I've had major problems.  I'm dealing with them.  Finally.

THE THING that made me leave Grab, was most of the community as a whole at that time was ganging up on one person.  I didn't want to take sides at that time.  I had never seen the person in chat!  How could I make an assumption of her intentions?  And her posts were removed from the boards lickity split too most times, so I couldn't make a decision.

So I was in Serfs Up one day, like I loved to be.  And she was blocked from most tourneys at that time.  But she got in, and started creating havoc.  And I started asking questions.  I even PM'ed her with a couple.  She was in she was out, was she even listening?  Eventually I got a PM that said I love you.  I asked the chat as a whole how they felt about that.  The return I got was negative.  But I saw a lost soul.  I saw a person reaching out for help.  I saw someone that might help me on my own journey.  I have a heavy load to carry.  I can't do it alone I am realizing.  She has helped me in ways I cannot imagine.  And I have yet to see her face, or even hear her voice for ages.  There is a comfort in an online interaction.  And yes, they can get strange and weird.  But is it that we feel we have betyayed too much of ourselves?

I out out here how proud I was of my son.  He was my life...my username.  I BECAME calvinsmommy when he was born.  Not something I ever saw myself as.  I poured out my heart and my pride when he did new things, but I also did not betray my worry.  He didn't roll over as soon as he should have.  He lost language.  He was turning his hand back and forth looking at it, and it was hard to get his attention.  He didn't respond to his name.

My son has autism.  There was something wrong with my perfect little boy.  It hurt me deeply until I found a way to deal with it, and reach out to him.

I also have had a beautiful little girl.  And am dealing now with post partum depression.  And Everything that has come with that good and bad.

How are you today?  I'm AWESOME.

Every once in a while something GREAT comes along, and everyone is doing it.

I first saw it on Scot's blog (Scooter_1977) then Helly did it (hellykwee) then Shaun (fuzzyhaze)

Lucia (something2prove) and Charlie (Greyrabbit)!  So lol is it officially cool yet?  I'd love to read yours if you are so inclined leave me a comment and I will check it out!

See my bulletin if you can help LOL  Blogging something I copied off another blog to pass the time...I can't do much with work right now,as I canno open up any new windows.  ~*SIGH*~

1. Who is the last person you held hands with?
Rocky

2. If you were sent off to war would you survive?
probably not...would die of homesickness

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Oh, I can't!  Too much noise!

4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
hehe YES! lmaO

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
No

6. Do you like somebody right now?
Yesssss lol

7. Are you a fast typer?
yes

10. Who can you always count on?
myself.....

11. Whens the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
never have time for a bath anymore

12. Have you ever thought about running away?
Thinking about it right now LOL

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
yes...water with HerbaSway Impeccably Peach added.  I've lost 25 lbs since I started adding it to my water.  Every dropperful is like drinking 30 cups of Green tea...a powerful fat burner,

14. Do you think you're attractive?
yes ;)

17. What do you want for Christmas?
more time

18. Do you know the muffin man?
Noooo, but if you see him, tell him I can't have muffins! lmaO

19. Do you talk in your sleep?
ummm dunno, lmaO I am asleep heh ehehe

20. Who was the last person you kissed?
Mazey when she wokeup from her nap....then she blew a sloppy raspberry on my cheek

21. Have you ever flown a kite?
yes

22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where?
at the swimming pool here in my complex.  I think it was before Mazey was born....

23. Do you consider yourself successful?
not finanically....but in all other ways YES

24. How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?
um....7?  Not sure hubby lost hisand took mine

25. Have you ever asked for a horse?
no, but I have asked for a Llama, a cow, a goat and a baby elephant....not to mention a fish tank, a kitten, a hampster,  lmaO

26. Plans for tomorrow?
Trying to get over this Bronchitis,and hopefully finishing the company audit if I can work out my computer problem.

27. What's your middle name, and why?
Mae after my mothers moms mom

28. Missing someone right now?
my brother is in washington..I don't get to see him much

29. When was the last time you told some one you love them?
Mazey LOL when she woke up from her nap

30. What was the last sport you played?
goodness.....it's been too long.  Like almost 4 years

31. How do you feel today?
horrible...I have bronchitis.  My head feels like it is full of fish

32. Are you black?
no

33. Do you wish your boyfriend/girlfriend was someone else?
married lmaO do I have a boyfriend anymore? heh heehee

34. What are you looking forward to?
getting over this sickness...and figuring out WHAT IS WRONG with my ocmputer!

35. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes, but I had to!

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Ew gross, not that I know of!.

38. Can you handle the truth?
possibly not, but I want to hear it anyway

39. Do you like green eggs and ham?
never had them green...and don't want to!

40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?
diaperbag, purse, keys

41. Any cool scars?
I have a scar on my thumb from almost severing the tendon cutting roast beef at work.  and some really neat stretchmarks on my belly lmaO they are my battle scars.

42. Do you like or have a crush on someone?
yes

43. Who cares?
I don't know anymore....

44. What do you do when no one is watching?
dance, scratch, sing LOL

45. How often do you talk on the phone?
I hate talking on the phone, almost every day I have tofor work

47. Is there something you want that you can't have?
loads of things LOL

48. Three things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
in order?
style of clothes, hair, hygiene

49. Who are you thinking about right now?
Rocky

50. Who did you last hug?
Mazey

52. Where is your phone?
right in front of me...I just answered it!

53. What was the last thing you ate?
toast...yuk I don't want to eat anything :P

54. What's your favorite color(s)?
blue, purple, black, red, pink (just recently) white

55. Last movie you watched?
Pirates of the Carabbean 2

56. What song do you currently hear?
not listening to music at the moment

57. What do you want?
the fish to get outta my head.

59. What t.v. show are you watching?
not watching TV.

60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
a client.

Nicked this from Helly....who got it from Fuzzy?...LOL I love how these things travel

1. I __________ Kendra

2. Kendra is _________

3. When I think of Kendra I think of _________

4. I want Kendra to ________

5. If I were alone in a room with Kendra I would __________

6. I think Kendra should ________

7. Kendra needs to _______

8. I want to _________ Kendra

9. If I could describe Kendra in one word, it would be _________

10. Kendra will _________

11. Kendra can _________ my ________

12. I hope Kendra will never _________

13. I _________ Kendra because _________

and some of me...lol ignore that one lmaoooo  Mazey is the one that will hold still for longer right now lol, Calvin will if I have him count to three then show him the picture in the digital window RIGHT AFTERWARDS lol

 Mommy's precious girl....LOL I've totally spoiled this one too much!  She LOVES the

dresses too!

Rockys sister called and wanted pictures RIGHT THEN of how the kids looked.  I took these of the kids....LOL good thing we were all showered!

Calvin LOVES his sister, he is such a great big brother.

Mazey trying cereal for the first time...she didn't LIKE it!  Even with me pumping out milk to make it!  AHHHH that took a lot of work precious girl!  LOL  I thought for sure the extra work to pump would pay off LOL....nope!

Mommy giving Calvin some love ... LOL.... he laughs heheehehe

If Mazey ever stops being sick she is getting a professional picture taken in this bonnett LOL

I think she has allergies or something.  Red eyes, fever....anyone with any tips I'd love to hear 'em!

OMG we had some time alone while Calvin was taking a nap....She's wearing the pixie skirt I made her, and she wanted to get into her hair stuff...LOL so much fun

She looks just like me here..... watch out! LOL

Isn't this boy BEAUTIFUL!

That's it for now...HUGS my friends!

These are all the color quizzes I coould find on blogthings!  THREE!  wha the?  LOL was hoping for more....

Dark Purple

To others, you seem a bit dark, mysterious, and moody. In truth, you are just a very unique person who doesn't care what others think. And you really enjoy your offbeat interests and friends. You've decided that life is about living for yourself - simple as that.

You Are Mint Green

Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well. Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations. You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life. Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them!

You are Apricot

Soft and sweet, over time you let your provocative nature shine through. You are definitely unconventional, but you don't broadcast it. You offer people a fresh perspective on life - so fresh that it can be shocking!

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!