Hey my son Daniel is finally back from his deployment and it feels so good. I wont get to see him and his family till December but I am just thankful he is back in the states. He got to hold his precious new baby girl Leilani who is almost 4 months old for the first time. Im sure the 3 year old is giving him no slack either. She is probably glued to his side lol. Love ya all and may God bless and keep each and every0ne.

Well the new baby arrived june 8th. It was another beautiful baby girl. Her name is Leilana Jasmine. She weighed 7lbs1oz and was19 inches long. She is gorgeous just like her big sister. I was in the delivery room and got to cut the cord and bring little one back to the nursery. Mom had a c-section but did real good. Kirstyn the 3 yeaqr old is having a hard time adjusting to sharing mom now lol. My son couldnt be there because he is on a tour of duty in the Persian Gulf on the Nimitz. Hope everyone has been doing well. God bless each and everyone of ya.

Well it is a good day. Got a call from son that is in the navy and he and Anita are having another girl. We are so thrilled because they said if they have a girl they are gonna try again for a boy later. That means lots more grandbabies to hug lol. Well not much going on here but had to share the news and we are so very excited. Nothing like being a gramma in the whole world.

Hey  everyone this is a poem written about a day a few weeks ago when I was at a low point.      

Felt so alone with worrys and cares

prayed for a sign and hoped someone cared

looked out the window and what did I see,

but 3 beautiful bluebirds looking at me, oh these blue birds so pretty and true

gave me my answer my answer from you

I sat and pondered why God saw me fit to see those bluebirds that I had just seen

and looked out my window and then saw three more

six lovely bluebirds perched in my yard. I was so blessed I cried out for joy.

As I was so caught  up in the thrill of the new ones , looked out  and saw 2 others. Kept thinking to myself Lord you really love me and you send it in my favorite bird.

Thought it was over but turned and looked, then I saw seven, seven bluebirds from heaven.

I ask for a sign and he gave me seven, he sent seven bluebirds down from heaven.

well it is a new year and I hope this one is better than the last. I hope that everyone has what they wish for and that everyone is blessed . I have made alot of new friends over the last week or so and hope the list continues to grow. I wish everyone gl in the games and tourneys.

Dont know what to write really. Things are bad right now and I seem to shut myself off from everyone when I get this way. Havent made very many friends here cause I dont chat much. I was always made to feel by everyone that I wasnt worth the time or not good enough, so I guess this is how I thnk of my self. I dont know why Jesus would go thru what he did for someone like me but I know he did. Thats what keeps me going is his love . Dont know what he has planned for me but will be here when he lets me know. I have wasted so much of my life loving people who take me for granted or just dont care, I guess in some ways I know how he feels. He did so much for us and dailly we do or say or think things that are completely against what he wants for us. Well not very cheerful and probably the reason no one has aske d to be my friend or on my friends list lol. God bless everyone.

this is a really bad week for me. My dad died when I was 13 and tomorrow is the34th anniversary of his death. Even when I try not  to think about this it just keeps coming back.  He was my shining star in my life and the only one I had growing up.  Usually right around the second week in november, my emotions go haywire, and it takes me a few days to realized what is wrong with me. I guess even tho I think I have worked through it , my subconcious hasnt. Well what a depressing blog huh. I am really a fun person. But feel very lonely right now. When I get this way I just try to remember that God is always with me no matter how I feel good or bad. Hope everyone has a nice thanksgiving day and God bless.