Chase is home on a 72 hour TCA (home visit). I picked him up yesterday evening and he will have to go back mid-day on Friday. So far, he's doing quite well, just a touch restless.

Conlan decided to wake everyone up again at yet one more unGodly hour. That seems to be his forte. He gets up incredibly early and decides he'd like company. Eventually, within 20 minutes of his eyes opening, the entire house is awake and cranky as hell. I have to find SOMETHING to get this kid to stay in his bed if he's going to wake up so early all the time. He never was a good one for sleeping. Even as a baby and young toddler there were sleep issues.

Chandler is LOVING school and looks forward every morning that he's able to get on the van and attend. And every afternoon he sits on the floor beside me and we do his homework together. He's pretty smart, but gives up fairly easily. Guess that's a simple male genetic marker. Can't argue with genetics, just try to overcome it.

Casey is actually making the grade in school yet again. Not that he has much choice about it, being in the leader program still. They pick him up directly after school where he does homework then he does the PT and whatever other classes, courses, pee tests, etc. they have scheduled for the day. He doesn't usually arrive home until between 8 and 8:30 at night.

Cian is hitting the 'terrible twos' hard and heavy, with a little extra teachings from his dear older brothers. He knows how to get into so much more than he should and for once I curse his intelligent little brain for picking up things so easily. However he's still able to cute his way out of most consequences, though a smack on the hand is usually sufficient punishment to help him understand that we DO NOT "_______" (whatever it is he does at the time to earn such a smack).

Caleb is well into learning his ABCs and 123s. He's catching on slowly but surely and I'm the one at a disadvantage, him being left handed and me not being left handed. Makes it a little more interesting on how to teach him to write his letters and numbers. But we're making it through. He should be completely ready for Kgarten next school year.

Me? I'm not really wanting to talk about me so much. I've had to make some difficult choices in my personal life that I'm not happy about, but it has become obvious to me that some things will not change. And there is only so much I can do to help get things rolling. I cannot fight for some things that don't want to be fought for, it's a rather futile effort. And banging my head against a brick wall might feel good at first, challenging even, but then after a few months it starts to hurt. So .... I'm dealing with yet another loss, another failure and trying to just get from one day to the next without breaking down and losing it. Having learned my lesson from experiences past, I know I will get through this. I just wish I understood why this time it's so much harder than all the other times I've failed in my life.

So that's the update on the Onder family. For whoever might read this silly blog and possibly even give a [censored].

Have a great day.