im kinda in a mood

not exactly though

more like im between moods

n im not feelin it

my friends are here

but im feel like im sandra bullock at the end of the movie crash

n im not feelin it

iono thier there but their presence isnt felt

tellin me to get over it doesnt help

it happened so long ago that i can hardly rember most of the details

but the ones i do rember are horrendously awful

or ecstatically happy

never in between

when does this feelin stop

everyone else has moved on but i havent

i think i could have made it better by far but i didnt try

or at least not hard enough

one day ill jus think of it as a low point

that just kinda offset the rest of the bad 

the daily reminders are costin me my sanity

and the reminders arent obvious their just part of my memories

maybe im not alone in remembering it all

but i sure as hell am the worst at hiding

and guess what?

im startin to feel it

in the mornin i get on the bus and i jus start sayin stupid shyt to ma boi mikelike we discuss all the things that come up in life like.

remember when you were little yur mom told u to go to yur room but shes standin between you and the door to yur room and you kno that when you pass her shes gonna hit you? and you start tryin to think of ways to get past her without her bein able to get you 

 or how you try to take forever to walk home after your teacher has called home tellin your parents about somethin bad you did yea you try ta find every rock on earth to kick and follow it so you can delay that beatin for as long as you can

 how when we have our next ice age only americans are gonna live cause we have 500 lbs. worth of fat insulation to keep us warm.

  if a woodchuck cant chuck wood why is it called that?

what happended to speedy gonzalez, hung kung fooey, secreat squirrel and other great cartoons?

 which sex is better off in life guys or girls?

what makes a person attractive to another person?

how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?

does someone on the otherside of the internet really tyruelly exist or are they the beginning of the matrix that is soon to come or are we already part of a matrix?

well thats all the stupid shyt from this morning and that was just a 30 minute ride well lata

and dont forget it is possile to burn spaghetti noodles lata

japple