i am just amazed and in awe of all the turmoil cheaters,grabble hoarders,mean spirited and cruel people have done to all the wonderful and caring people on this site.
i am seeing people leave left and right this week, because of the animosity of SOME PEOPLE.
my god we all game to this site, to either get away from our problems, meet new people, or play interesting games, or just to combat the lonlieness in our lives.
now i see anger,hatred,mean spiritedness, and a CHEATERS POSTING ON MESSAGE BOARD THAT JUST KEEPS GOING AND GOING!!!
this site has done so much for me. i started on gamerival until the organizers screwed with that site had to leave, but from it i met a group of women and a few men that we all moved over to this site. we also became real friends.
i thank god everyday for this special group and the tons of new friends i have met here. my mom died 7yrs ago,with my inheritance i bought this computer and from it i cried ,and laughed and told my ups and downs with people i have never met but have become such a huge part of my life.
i wouldnt have made it without them and my wonderful friends here in my town.
I KEPT GOING,BECAUSE OF ALL OF THEM. i didnt want to go on when my mom died, my [censored] of a husband left almost a year after for a way way older woman, so that he could retire,travel and have his midlife crisis without a woman who still had to work and grieve.
this site isnt the greatest but it isnt the worst either.every site has problems, hell every city has problems as well as every family isnt really that perfect. but in my heart knowone isnt going to make me leave because of ignorance, or mean spritedness or cheating. my mom raised me to fight when im down.and damnit , i want to help rid this site of whatever the heck is going on.
i dont want to see anymore people bailing out!!! lets fight back to bring back the fun, and happy times we used to have.
if we have to go after the trouble makers lets gettem .if its cheaters, lets gettem. if the site owners need help, ask what we can do to help instead of complaining how long it takes something to get fixed.
and above all dont let anyone feel like they are fighting these battles alone. dont turn away when someone is getting pounced on by a mean spirited person, let them know your there,and if everyone good got on board, the fight for good would out weigh that one bad apple.
lets get the good people working together again, instead of the ones who have been fighting alone. a bad apple loves a crowd to watch, but runs when the crowd turns on them.

years ago i suffered a serious mental breakdown. i was in a bad relationship, facing layoff from work, in the starts of dire financial problems, and a neighbour from hell. and i mean she was and still is not my most favourite person in the world. throw in ive always been sensitive, and stressed and a worrier, well if you havent figured out where this is leading yet....
i tried to commit suicide. somewhere in your mental phycy is someone who still wants to live. and i got on the phone to call for help.well those are the kinda days when its beautiful out everywhere else but over your house. so over and over i called looking for someone to save me. thank god because that little guy inside was losing his battle to keep me alive,and knowone there was proving my point,but someone did answer the phone and in one breath i said help me im dying. it seemed like only seconds but she was here and got me to a hospital.
long story short, that friend and another woman who played a role in my being here today got me into that mental hospital and i learned to breath all over again.the relationship i was in and the stress of bills had what got me to step out of reality and into a downward spiral. i loss myself but found out who really cared, about me.
a month later my mom died of a massive heart-attack. i was still just taking baby steps out of the hospital. but that day, i didnt go back but began the long road to finding a new me. and this one was stonger than i had ever been in my whole life. thanks to my 2 friends.
i have thought recently about how we have all lost friends on this site.weither it be sudden or an illness that has finally taken them home. and i look at what my life was like with them in it.the jokes, the stories or the little intimacies we tell each other about our lives on the other side of cyber world.
in our own ways we have become a separate family of friends and loved ones, who truly care about each other. we cant share a coffee over the table but we share coffee over a screen.
i think now as i look at my 2 friends here, they saved my life years ago to become this new stronger woman that i am still becoming.what would i ever do without them in my life. i can see them,talk to them or reach out and touch them because they are only minutes away. and i would thank them as i have every day by telling them thank-you for saving my life.
here in cyber world, i have also been saved by friendship,love compassion, opinions,attitudes and heart felt get your ass in gear woman. i have been saved in my sanity,my lonlieness,and life comparisons. i have seen strength,shyness,anger, bullies shot down by a group and true kindness that would wipe the floor withany bully who took us on. he is my other friends, i value so much and truly love.
here the loss of a friend cannot be shown with a hug or wipe each tear away. but it is strong, and solid and loving.
to all my friends, my mom had a saying and i use it often. i would say i love you and she would say back I LOVE YOU TOO,AND NEVER DOUBT IT!!!
so to all my dearest and close friends you have made wonderful and lasting memories in my life.i have learned from you's and you have all also helped make me a better woman.

I THANK YOU ALL
I LOVE YOU,S AND NEVER DOUBT IT

oh lord this is one of my biggest pet peeves on this site. you get the same people winning the tourneys , and cant even turn around and host one darn tourney of that game. and if by the gracious god in heaven they do host a tourney they use like 1% of the kazzilion games they won playin it to host there tourney.
think of it this way , if you won 10 games with a total 40,000 grabbles. then finally host a tourney and put in if we are truly lucky 1000 grabbles total of your own, boy did you make a payoff of your investment, if you turn around and play and win your own tourney.
come on, you know who you are. give it up, its not like these grabbles can pay your mortgage payments. i will start congratulating you's again when you show some decency and honour.

have you ever huggged a tree in front of people or walked down the toy aisle and turned on all the toys that sing or dance or just squack,have you ever at work started to dance or sing to a song in your head in front of coworkers just for the heck of it or to give them a laugh..well heck i have and its a heck of alotta fun.
and even better turn up the tunes in the car and start boppin your head and singing louder then the radio as people driving by are looking and chuckling. well guess what not long after other drivers kinda loosin up around you when they see heck i dont know these other drivers anyway yeah lets dowhapp
have alittle fun in your day,when things are rough just give in to your old kid nature and let loose for a second or two you will feel better

many many many years ago i lost the chance to have my own children. medically at a young age i asked god over and over what i had done wrong to get dealt this bad hand.
but in his infamate wisdom, he banged me on the head for quite a few years to finally get me to realize loving children i bore is the same as being able to love those i didnt. ive been blessed late in life having children in my life. ive been called ma and grandma for quite a few years now. what i didnt realize that by sitting in my own self pity, and avoiding those with babies and about to have babies i was also blocking out all the love i had to give and all the ones who needed someone to love them.
my babies were my cats. just like it is for alot of people who cant have children. it only takes someone in a similar situation as mine to understand this. it also takes someone with kindness and an open heart to understand are wants to have babies. thats why we love our animals so much.
i went to an adoption agency seminar to find out what the procedure to adoption.when i found out the cost , which is alot but was willing to sacrifice , that i could learn to deal with. but when i found that after 6 months the adoption could be recinded by the natural parent that i couldnt deal with. so now at 45 i have still not adopted . my heart could not take that pain,twice in its life time.
now i have a beautiful grown (and in our hearts) adopted daughter who has a mom in a far away country and i also have 2 beautiful grandchildren. they needed a mom and grandma here close but also know they have a mom and grandma far away that loves them also. we all win with this situation, i myself more because i finally listened to god and opened my arms and he filled them.

boy it just burrs my butt when someone gets a pet, and doesnt think of the responsibilties of having one. they are not childrens toys or babysitters. i have 4 little babies .max and zoe are brother and sister, murphy's law because he thinks he's a flying monkey and has to come down eventually and newest member is cole who still has his baby cry after a year.
they each have their own personalities and likes and dis-likes. so i cant say im the only one with mood swings around here.
for me have these guys and cats previously before this bunch, i know in my heart saved my life and my sanity. when i was around 11, i started getting really sick when i first had my women thing(hate the other versions of saying my you know what).anyway was in and out of hospitals alot.finally by the time i turned 19 had to have a total hysterectomy. when i came home from hospital my poor mom who had lost so much time from work being in london at hospital for me had to return to work. god love my mom she was an amazing woman god bless her soul.
she used to say to midnight our little black cat take care of my little girl. well min never left my side for two weeks. then momma put her out to go to the bathroom and she didnt come home. well talk about to women in grief mode. im bent over because of my surgery and my mom was a baker coming home on her lunch to look for min and me in a moomoo gown and moms winter coat out looking at night and day time.
it was almost 2 weeks and moms worried about my health ,and she comes home at 5am and im sitting up crying, in the kitchen. we both missed that little black furball.then i hear a noise very faint at door.moms going just the old door creakin but goes and checks,and low and behold theres minmin.near starvation full of sores and scratches but he got himself home from wherever.mom figured that he got caught in someones shed, and they closed the door and never knew he was in there.
end of story midnight got me through and we got him through.the love from that little darling got me and mom through as i was facing now no children in my future but i knew who can give love without saying a word.
to me if you have animals love them like babies because they are one of gods greatest gifts.they dont ask for alot but they give back so much love.