How can you say you are a friend when you are never there. You ditched me in the middle of nowhere not caring if I would ever make it home. You moved away and never said good-bye. You never ever call. I mean, how do you forget a phone number that has been the same for over 8 years? Even after my father put a bullet in his head and messed up the way I now see the world. The time I needed you and thought you would be there for me the most, you were nowhere to be found. I now realize that you were never my friend. I look back over the years that I called you my best friend. You treated me more like an enemy than anything. Maybe thats just how you are. Your friends are disposable, depending on your mood. I have come to the understanding that I was never supposed to be here, so we were never meant to be friends anyway. My time here was meant to be temporary and so were the relationships with anyone here. So really I guess I can't blame you or anyone else. Maybe my mom for picking such a screwed up place for me to grow up in. But she was just trying to protect us so how can I blame her. Anyway, I just wanted to let it be known that I am finally moving on and starting over. You didn't want to know me anymore so you will never know me again. The Me that you once knew no longer exists. You and the new Me were never friends.